The pain can't amount

I had done what I could
Hoping one day he would

But he cannot forget

My inevitable regret

So move on they say

With no regard for me

Carry on and push today

Know it's true, I'll be ok

Just right now I can't see

Through this cascade of tears drowning me

That one tomorrow will shine bright

And maybe that day my heart will be light

The day is so far away

I thought I found Mr. Perfect yesterday

I had never broken up with people in my life, ever in my life... Until I got bored and broke up with you.

 

I had never thought I could become strong on my own ever in my life... Until I met this guy... and learned from you.

 

It's not hard for me

To look and see

On the inside of you

And the inside of me

To know with clairity

There was never ANYTHING

Wrong with me...

 

Just one thing:

My inability to get away from you

My disability to do anything I needed to

My constant need for what you could be

And you never would, my blindness couldn't see

 

Other than that I have become the perfect being

HATE ME mother fucker... I LOVE ME

I can do what I want and be what I need

I no longer need help, help to never pleed

You know it's sad it took me this long

But you were screwing up all along

Now I can chart my own coarse to the promise land

Now that I'm the only one I need holding my hand.

 

I'm holding my breath but this feeling won't leave

It's been waiting four hours and one day too long

But you life seems to be moving on

 

I understand and I'll fucking wait

I just hope that it isn't too late

I need a life and I need my love

But when you can't breath it's not enough

 

I'm tired now and I"m sick too

I'm tired of holding my breath for you

I don't want to be breathless for another day

I love you but I can't stay

 

I'm turning purple and flashing red

It seems you haven't been listening to anything I've said

My chest is tight, I still can't breathe

But my pain you're too busy to relieve

 

I've been holding my breath for far too long

And it's because this whole time you've been gone

Oh well, you're too busy I guess

But I'm tired of being breathless

They always said it wasn't me

But that was all of them

They kept on insisting it was him

But all I can see

It it's all about me

When I keep going back to plan B

Why can't I be like you.

I opened up...

And you did what they do

I told you my fears; You must have laughed at me

Because before I knew it, you were a ghost only I could see

By fear of dying alone

My dream would have known

I leaned on you but in one day I fell through

The things you told me, I believed you

Now what do I do, what do I say?

I said I was gonna build a wall, but no one believed me

Well here it goes, brick by brick

When I'm done, even I won't be able to get through it

My only tears to be shed will behind closed doors

Why can't you be here? I was there to batch yours

I'm so shattered inside, and only I can see...

The way I felt when you abandoned me...

But I'm sure one day I'll get over this trivial thing

I'm hoping that one day I won't know pain