It seems like every time I try to get creative I get side tracted or something. I think maybe they're too painful. I know I'm in love, but I don't understand what I could do. Say maybe I've one the worst that could be done.. but I don't know lie or truth. Tell somein else. I'm tired of trying to live up to other people's what the fuck ever I think now I'm just gonna do what I want. These litle cat naps of mine. showevers and clothes those goddamn pink fling elephants. Why don't I care about anthing. Why did I do what I did? I really shoudln't have. Vut if m circumstance isn't met then I'm gonna do it again.

I don't know if it's to spite him or of I simply need more chocolate than he's willling to provide. I feel aweful because I lve him so much but at thte same time I really don't care all that much.... I'd ry to tell him sorrry. But he could never forget a second inevitable regret. I love him and I'm just getting what I want doing what I like.

Hang out do things get involved love and let love... Heee... I want someone to have sex in front of me... a specific someone. But it has to do with dreams and lusic thing of which I could never tell you. My deepest secrets and desire. I think I have a flare for the fucked up. But I think it suits me well. Everything in my lofe goes how it's supposed to. because Everything in my life is supposed to go wrong. So let's take out fucking my life up and see how much power she's got. No great acheivment without great rist. Here I go...

Here I go... I run... I fly I'm taking off from your world. I swear I'm gonna stay in mine where I can talk to dandilions and pop-tarts. Voie the arts. Be undergruond and bad or be upper class pad. My life will be whatever is. And whatever it is it's perfect and I can't wait to live it. I want to jump in to my change and my sacafice. I just want to run and be happy.... I think I can... I'm so close to finding out... 8-10 days and everything should all be different.

I'll get lost again like I did in the land of dreams.

Be my DreamCatcher