Alright. So I said I was gonna start with the next two weeks, right? Well first I wanna get a job. Yeah buddy I want a job. Right now it's looking like I might be doing a bit of web design or something like that. I also need to study my GED prep book. Why? Because in Jan I'm planning on taking the test and it would be HORRIBLY LOVELY if I passed the test. I hear those things cost money. Maybe by the time I take the test I'll have some. :-p.
Yeah, I want to get my stupid curfew ticket that I got two years ago paid off so that I can get in to driver's ED and get a damned licence. And I wouldn't mind getting a car. So if any of you people has a car for sell REALLY cheap let me know alright? Yeah great thanks.
So after that I'm actually planning on moving by Feb. It shouldn't be that hard other than the prep (The job, the school, the GED, the fucking place to live.) I mean everything in my room would easily fit in one of them 20 dollar trucks. So when I move I want to go to an ROP college and get a licence to be a dental assistant, then I'm going to do that while I have fun with my life. I'm gonna try a little bit of everything. Web design, real estate trading, investing, interior decorating, teaching or baby-sitting. Just generally doing a little bit of everything. Maybe by then I'll be a successful famous poet. You never know but it could happen right?
Other than that, I'm keeping up with the whole one of my major goals is to know myself really well. To not have to try to determine whether not feeling or feeling to much is good or bad or whatever. I want to stop being confused by my feelings and thoughts. I mean for christ sake at this point I would settle for just being able to know for a fact whether or not I am hungry. But all in due time. I'm pretty sure that all of my indecisiveness stems from feeling inadiquate to my family and what-not. But if my family becomes me and only me. (Like it will when I move out) Then my family will always be happy and proud of me. Maybe when I stop trying to please my biological family I will be able to please myself, and I will be pleased with myself. I also think that alot of my comfusion and depression will go away when the infuence of my family is no longer racking on me all the time. Wish me luck ladies and gentle men. This little duckling is getting ready to test the waters and go for a swim in the big waters. In a blink Revelation has come... and it's over.
